With the coming of the new started with joy, that went to worry and is now gone to grief. Tyleah has gone in to the hospital with another flair up and I didn't find out untill day two in the hospital. Not so fun. But she is done and out now, but is still some problems yet that is to be expected. Now as for the grief part my grandfather passed away. It is sad that he is gone, but after having dealt with Alzheimer's and having his health deteriorate, it was his time to go. With him being so out of it for so long, Iam happy that he is no longer in pain. He is now in a place that isn't like being in a prison of his own body and is able to remember that basic daily bodily movements. It has hard for him to go like this but Iam hoping that it wont affect my grandmothers health any more. With her focusing on his health for so long her health has started to faultier. So hopefully she will be able to take better care of herself. It will be hard losing the person that she has been with for so long.
I didn't really know what else to do today even though I was at work, so I have now planned out most of my sisters flights and info. Its going tobe interesting to see everyone together. Even with Tiana not talking to my Mom, it should be interesting to see how it all goes. Just hoping that it wont be too stressful. Instead of only staying for the weekend Iam just going to stay for the extra week to help out where I can, while hoping that I will be able to get my writing done before sundance. While it will suck not having any money being made this month, it will be worth going to Sundance and hope to be able to help out with the family. There are times that I think that they really dont think I care about them, but that is not the matter at all. I just have found that my family doesn't say how much they care or appreciate each other as we should.
It is sad that in one person's death that everyone else realizes what they missing in life. It is in the loss that people decide to change there life or see what they want to change or do different, but they either do it or will always think about doing it and never go through with it. I hope to be the one that sees what they want to do and then do it. While there are still things that I fear of doing, I hope to be able to face my fears and only come out the end stronger.
Here is to a lost loved one and to take the opportunity of being a new graduate and see where life takes me. There is no stopping me in what I can and can't do. Meet the next major Producer, Writer, and hopefully director. Yup that is me Iam talking about. And there is nothing that can stop me.
