So, with all of the stuff that had happened with the first internship I'm starting to get nervous about finding another one. I have two interviews coming up. Both are unpaid part time development internships with what seems to be with legit production companies, but I'm still nervous. I have to drive back down from San Francisco tomorrow to make it for Thursday, with another load of stuff to move. Not really looking forward to packing all of my stuff and leaving my friends again. Although I am excited about moving on past school and getting in to my career, but Im still scared shitless. I miss my roommates and all of the small things that we, like the stupid comments we make while watching TV or movies and the random noises we make for no reason at all. Though we all support each other in where we are going on in life. I'm still going to miss them. They will always be apart of my family and I really need to plan out more trips up here to see them. And I can't wait to see where we all are in five years. I know that Julie will be off in some type of medical field, and Marlie working in a lab or research job, and well me. I'm just hoping to have a job in the film industry being able to pay the bills and maybe even travel some.
As nervous as Iam with the interview, I really am excited. There will be so much potential and being able to actually learn about the industry that this last job didn't do. I get to actually learn and do things that I have been wanting to do since I got in to this degree. This is going to be the first time that I would work with a company that is consistently putting out work and are not all talk. Time to keep looking on the positive and see where this will take me.
As my sister told me "This first internship is what needed to push you to just get to LA. Now that it's done and the door is closed. Now you have other doors that have opened up to choose from. You can't get discouraged by one negative experience to effect how you look on others." You know what she is right. I now have a good story to tell about my first industry job and I wasn't afraid to leave a job that would end up making me hate a career that I love. And that is just one thing that I refuse to let happen.
I once had a person say to me to really think about what I want to do with my life and if I can see myself doing something else then I need to be doing that. Thinking about it I couldn't really think about anything other then film. There is just so much I can do with it. I can do the writing that I love and the logistics of making films that I also love. Why should I give up everything that I like to do? I shouldn't and I wont.
Live and learn. Strive to do your best and don't ever give up doing what you love. I find that there are too many people who are afraid to do what they love. Well. you should be scared, but that shouldn't stop you.
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