Weddings

This weekend was the first of my friends to get married. Well, technically it's two of my friends who married each other. It was am amazing wedding with small touches that screamed my friends. The man who officated was another of our friends who was the one who introduced the two back in college. Between the three of them they had started the Men's and Women's rugby team at our school. In omage to them being rugby players the cake topper was a bride tackling the goom who is wearing rugby shorts running with a rugby ball. The bride's mother was horrified about. Other than the open bar and none stop dancing after the ceramony, everything was more her parents style then both the bride and groom. Which brought up the topic of what people say about weddings. That the day isn't about the groom, you just have tell him what to wear and when to show up. It's also not so much about the bride either. Though it is alot more so about her then the groom. But it is about the brides mother. Now don't get me wrong the wedding I went to was beautiful. Both friends were happy and everyone had a blast. The ceremony was short and sweet. And the weather was perfect for an outdoor wedding. And yes I did cry. Guess that means I 'm more of a sap than I thought. Like all weekends that involved weddings converstations of our own weddings were talked about as my roommates and one of their mother's. The three of us sat talking about our nonexistant men in our lives and what we would want on our big days when they come. Which really go me thinking. As much as I want to have the big wedding the whole thought terrifies me to be honnest. While I may write romance the whole thing really does scares me. Having grown up in a divorced family since I was 2 all I know is disfunctional relationships. Not to mention that I have a tendency to run from men who actually show interest. So, when it cames to talking about getting married and starting a family it hit me...As much as I want to have those things that everyone else has/wants I feel a bit ashammed to want it when most of my family doesn't have the same warm fuzzy feelings that most people have. That shouldn't be an issue in life but I guess it is. When it comes down to it, I'm more than happy being independent and I don't want to lose that, even if I do end up with someone. In the end if I find the right guy, then I find the right guy. If that includes merrage and kids then so be it. In the end I refuse to let what society's standards define if I'm happy or not. In the end weddings should be a happy event with no drama that celebrates two people's lives coming together. And that was excatly how it was yesterday. It doesn't matter how the wedding goes. What you're wearing or what the food is like or what music is playing. As long as the bride and groom are happy together that is all that matters. And that right there is why I write romance. It's about the struggles and insecurites and fears and finding that person that makes facing all of that worth it. They might not end up always being happy endings, but it's those times that end up making the person you are. And there is nothing wrong with falling in love. Cause it's in thouse times that you learn more about yourself and the world then one might think. Congrats to all the love birds out there and the newly weds. Starting a life together may be tough, but well worth it.